UNDERSTAND ME, BEFORE I TELL

the ones who can't succeed to explain are quite.
the ones who have given up on telling are quite.
the ones who have decided that they won't be understood are quite.
the dissapointed ones are quite.
the ones who are afraid of making mistakes are quite.
the ones who have fear of displaying themselves are quite.
the ones who are so weak not to realise they are not the one they think they are,
the ones who are so weak not to realise they don't live in the world in which they think they live are quite.
the ones who can't deal with the facts are quite.
the ones who think they have seen everthing and gone through any possibilities are quite.
the feebles who are deadly in need of seeming strong are quite.
Hush... Silence.
the ones who could talk forever are the ones who get quite before than anyone does.
then the women come next...
even they are counted in this cathegory.
then the poets...
the deaths get quite last.


and "Saying nothing... sometimes says the most." had once said Emily Dickionson. It doesn't have to sound logical. At least, mathematically. Yet, we all know, sometimes being quite is the best answer we can ever give. Indeed, it tells more than we think it does. Haven't you seen the long sentences, the prolonged words you have poured to someone actually has changed nothing. What have you got back apart from a huge "0"? Did they understand you? Even if they did, did you feel you were understood with the acts of those? Let me answer. No.
Like a quote; words, speeches... they sound great, but they don't add up to anything. All that matters is what they feel, what they want...
And yes, some of us choose to be quite due to getting tired, being dissapointed. But let me bring an optimistic vision for all. Would you feel that you were alive if you didn't get tired at all? Or would you really prefer to be the dissapointment instead of being dissapointed?
Well, some are quite because they can't explain, or they are ashamed, or they are desperate.
Yet, the ones who are quite because of they are dissapointed, because of they have seen that them talking changes nothing... this is a dangerous thing then. They are not the dissapointment, they are dissapointed. But yet the ones who got them to stop talking, they are the dissapointment, usually.

If only you really believe that you have tried enough to explain and saw nothing has changed for real...

You don't have to talk more
you don't have to make a sound,
if someone wants to understand you, then they will.
It's all about wanting.
If you get silence back to your silence,
then you know what it means,
you never have to try to make a sound again.
It's gone. You know?
It's all gone.
The dissapointment, either.

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MORE THAN A DREAM

YOU MAY NOT BE HER FIRST, HER LAST OR HER ONLY. SHE LOVED BEFORE, SHE MAY LOVE AGAIN. BUT IF SHE LOVES YOU NOW, WHAT ELSE MATTERS? SHE ISN'T PERFECT, YOU AREN'T EITHER AND THE TWO OF YOU MAY NEVER BE PERFECT TOGETHER BUT IF SHE CAN MAKE YOU LAUGH, CAUSE YOU TO THINK TWICE, AND ADMIT TO BEING HUMAN AND MAKING MISTAKES, HOLD ONTO HER AND GIVE HER THE MOST YOU CAN. SHE MAY NOT BE THINKING ABOUT YOU EVERY SECOND OF THE DAY, BUT SHE WILL GIVE YOU A PART OF HER THAT SHE KNOWS YOU CAN BREAK-HER HEART. SO DON'T HURT HER, DON'T CHANGE HER, DON'T ANALYZE AND DON'T EXPECT MORE THAN SHE CAN GIVE. SMILE WHEN SHE MAKES YOU HAPPY, LET HER KNOW WHEN SHE MAKES YOU MAD AND MISS HER WHEN SHE ISN'T THERE.

BOB MARLEY.

*for the ones who believe in love again and again! (:

"someone out there is meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soulmate, the one you can tell your dreams to. He'll smile at you when you tell him, but he'll never laugh at your heart. He'll brush the hair out of your eyes and send you flowers when you least expect it. He'll call you to tell you goodnight before you get into bed or 'just because' he is thinking about you. He'll be bursting to talk to you each morning just to hear the sound of your voice. He'll look into your eyes and tell you that you are the most beautiful girl he has ever seen and for the first time in your life you'll believe it! (;"

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..a heart that keeps beating, keeps hoping, keeps loving..

Rocks break, everything changes, even when you think you're sure, especially. You wanna know about me in 500 words? I get scared sometimes, I'm dissapointed, I have doubts and I love gettin' my way. I don't like change but I know it's good for me and inevitable, so I welcome it as best I can. If you want to judge me, measure me by the size of my hope. I don't know where I'll be a year from now. I want to be a million of things when I grow up. I want to leave my mark on the world. Everything changes, even when you think you're sure. Especially when you think you're sure. There is a poem by Yoham Framm that says it better than I will: "Defy the old dragon, defy the fear. The world may rage and quake, but I shall remain singing in perfect peace." Yeah things happen, things you don't expect, or want, or like. The world rages and you become someone you didn't know you'd ever be. And there you are, in your clothes, in your life. This is my future. This is me and I want things I never thought I would. A place to grow, meet new people, a place to surprise when life turns out to be nothing I imagined... and to be grateful for it. In perfect peace. There's power in change. With change comes lots of room to grow. The hardest part of moving forward is not looking back. I might be a little bit jaded, I'm a little damaged, like a vintage t-shirt you love because it tells a story. I complain a lot, but I remember everyday how much God had blessed me. I have a family I don't go a day without talking to. Old and new friends who make me smile. And a heart that keeps beating, keeps hoping, keeps loving.

Everwood

WHAT IS IT LIKE BEING NORMAL?

What do people think about being normal? Whar are their common "criterions" about being a normal person?

1-Working in a job that you don't like from 9 to 5 each day and being retired after 30 years

2-Believing that power is more important than money and money is more important than happiness (eventhough none shows it's their belief)

3-Humiliating the ones who runs after happiness instead of money saying they aren't ambitious

4-Criticizing people who are different from the ones you have seen

5-Not looking into anyone's eyes in the bus considering it might be misunderstood

6-Trying to hang back your smile from people "again" considering it might be misunderstood

7-Not being aware of how much you actually are different from every single person in the world

8-Doing your best not to believe yourself just to run away from a difficult situation, doing nothing but giving up

9-Telling things to people up to what they feel, not up to what you want to say

10-Never keeping in mind that "tomorrow, in fact, might never come"

11- Having a lot of things to say for a lot of people but just not being able to leave proud (in fact it doesn't mean being not proud)

12-Leaving your dreams and starting to do what others say or what will make you have a more comfortable life

............

the list goes on and on and on!!

It's how most of the people are now, it's the majority! If being normal is about all of these, then guess i never wanna be normal!

I don't think not many things are greater than working a job that you like and nothing is more important than happiness.

Why do we criticize people because of they are different from the ones we have seen instead of leaving being a cliche person?

I think we should smile all the time not caring about what others might think, because a smile can change other's day or even life and smiling faces around make the atmosphere better, right(:

Giving up? It just shows how weak you are, nothing we love is easy!

I never understand why we make words considering what who we talk to will think? Doesn't it mean taking words or even the person for granted?

Just say what you wanna say and set your tongue, mind and heart free!(;

Proud? what a handicap! I don't think many people know what it is but it's not telling what you feel or think eventhough how much you got hurt before or what someone did.

Never leave what you actually wanna do! Don't you wanna live a dream while living? :)

SOME DANCE TO REMEMBER, SOME DANCE TO FORGET

Dancing...

It is sometimes so magnificient.

It sometimes means nothing, not more than taking your steps depending on someone.

Yet,"some dance to remember, some dance to forget."

Dancing is when two souls get close to each other, when they try to feel each other. It doesn't always work. Sometimes we can't feel the other, eventhough we try hard to do so. We might like it at first. Because it's a dance that your partner does anything not to hurt you, he tries not to take any wrong step towards you. These dances make you feel valuable. However, you don't want it to last long; if you just feel that there is no rhythm or passion in the dance. We can't create the rhythm or the passion if they don't come out naturally. Feeling a stranger's body on you makes you want to stop the dance, eventhough the music is bewitching! It always is.

But yet, there are some dances that you try your best not to lose a minute without dancing. Unlike in the other dance, your partner is not so careful about not hurting you. Yet, you feel like you have been dancing for so long and the music is so appealing and your partner is so hard to leave and there is passion -not unison-, there is the habit -not magic-. You feel like dancing has never been so great, until your partner makes a mistake taking a wrong step and you fall down... maybe for a lot of times you fall down and stand up again and again. Dancing with him is more than magnificient, but it's never enough. Some mistakes in dancing can't be forgiven..

And the best dances... When there are rhythm,passion,unison all together!... Is it impossible? Some think so... It isn't. I have felt it for a short time that it's not impossible, i feel it isn't.

Here is the last blog of 2009!

Wow! How fast one more year has passed!... It's quite unbeliveable to believe it has been one year. Nevertheless, it's right when it's said time flies!

I of course remember the new year eve in last year. It was pretty true that I have entered 2009 with the ones I love. -Okay, not all was the ones I love. Anyhow, it was pretty ok. I am still wondering how this one is going to be like.

"We all get at least one good wish in a year over the candles on our birthday. Some of us throw in more, on eyelashes, fountains, lucky stars. And every now and then, one of those wishes come true. So what then? Is it as good as we hoped? Do we bask in the warm glow of our happiness or do we just notice we’ve got a long list of other wishes waiting to be wished? "

We also have wishes when it's to be a new year. New wishes, incoming decisions, ingoing hopes... One of our wishes will come true, one of our decisions will be performed, one of our hopes will be actualized. And then? Will we be aware of it? Even we are, will we be grateful for we are among the lucky ones or will we just keep on complaining about we have a lot left? Probably and unfortunately, we will be doing the last one. -I won't be one of them. None of us should be. I wise up to my hopes, wishes and decisions, I wise up to my dream. I know I will have the power to make them real and I can't wait to lie back and bask in the warm glow of my happiness! :)

They say we are to be with the ones whoever we enter the new year with during the new year.... I guess I am one of them who believes in it(: Despite of not knowing what tomorrow night will bring, I am curios about it though!

One more thing! While entering the new year, I have one important voice in my head. And it's to make myself happy even if nobody will be around or with whoever will be around. Letting people make you sad won't get any of us too far. Here I am repeating again that in the end we are all we have and that has to be enough, there is no other way. So why not letting them make you sad??!?? Have the ones who deserve the value you give them! I guess I have had quite enough of it this year :)

Whatever! 2009 wasn't like how I expected it to be; but I am hoping that I will have changed a lot of things by this time next year.

For the ones I love and care about, I wish new year will bring happiness, success and love to all! <3

P.S: I am also hoping to have better and more blogs in the coming year :)))

A TRIP ALONG LYRICS

"There are some hurts that you never completely get over. And you think time will diminish their presence and to a degree...it does. But it still hurts, because, well...hurt hurts."

I was really believing in the idea that human being's brain is enough to do everything it wants to. I truly thought so. But here is a question: are we able to get over anything that hurts us? The truth is we can't. Not all... I guess George Micheal has been right when he said "there is no comfort in the truth, pain is all you will find". We all try to get over things. For real, we do. Yet, to a degree...

The story goes on like this. Firstly, we face the pain. Our first reaction might be keen. On the contrary, it might be taciturn though. It's mostly up to the time, person and the problem etc. However, it hurts like hell. Nobody knows, unless we tell. Nobody understands, unless we explain. Nobody realizes, unless we show. Yet, it hurts and it's just us who feels it. Or we rebel, we scream, we cry out loud. In both ways, at the end, we start forgetting (thanks to time!). We move on, go back to the normal, routine life. When we really complete to convince ourselves that we are over it, something happens. A song? Yeah, we might hear a song and it makes us feel like it has never done before... Let reminiscing start! Or we see someone who looks like.... whoever has hurt us before. People sometimes might look like they're twins, right? Maybe just a memory... I mean we can't just control our brains so that we could remember only the things that we like. Surely, memories are the worst part. Like Gwen Stefani says "our memories... they can be inviting; but some are altogether mighty frightening". So true!

Whatever, what I am trying to tell is we just can't escape. Despite of trying hard to forget about things, we all remember them at the end. A song, a photo, a person, a memory.... or it's just us... that reminds us what makes us sad.

Above all, some things are worth to be lived, eventhough they hurt. For instance, love. It's just the ones that we love who can hurt us. For, they are the ones we care about. However, I suppose I am someone who agrees with Incubus about something and here it's "love hurts but sometimes it's a good hurt and it feels like I am alive" . On the other hand, it's true. We wouldn't have been aware of the value of life and happy moments, if we hadn't had pain ever. So, being hurt is a sign that shows that we are alive? (: Anyhow, just "tell that someone that you love just what you are thinking of, if tomorrow never comes" like I am quite sure Garth Brooks does.

Also, about telling people what we are thinking of... I have always appreciated people who are open to anyone. I don't mean honesty or sincerity. It's just we should always have it on our minds that life's short. What we have today or who we have today might not exist tomorrow. It's not that hard to pour the words "you mean a lot to me", "I really care about you", or "I love you". I wonder how many people have missed the chance to say these words to another and have regretted afterwards. Surely, a lot. Let's move on before it's too late. Morevover, if this moment isn't too late for you, you are among the lucky ones(:

However, I guess there are times that words can't heal things. It's so weird that sometimes those meaningful words mean nothing; because they are poured from a one's mouth that has really hurt before so that your life has been affected badly. It's so weird that someone that you loved like hell before can later make you pray for not remembering anything about them. It's so weird that someone you have shared a lot is now nowhere in your life. Like it is said in one of the Avenged Sevefold's songs, they might after sing like "..cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again", but it means nothing to us. Because we probably wouldn't feel any remorse by then, while they deal with theirs... Maybe for we have already walked away...

By the way, walking away? It's a must, if someone really hurts on purpose. What if someone really needs you to walk away... I don't know if it's right or wrong to stay, when we are told to walk away directly or indirectly...Still, if someone wishes someone to leave, to stay will be ridiculous. There might be problems, we might try to solve... However, if someone tells that it's for nothing to try... Why staying more? There are of course stereotype words, too. If we hear someone telling us they just don't want to hurt anymore, they can't change the way they are, they are not good for us or they don't deserve us. There is one thing they want to tell and it is "walk away"... If someone doesn't want to hurt you anymore, then they will not again by healing the old wounds and not causing any more. If someone really doesn't want to lose you, they'll change for you. If someone thinks that they aren't good enough for you, then they will try to be good for you and to deserve you. It has always been like this. So if you hear someone wanting to walk away because of those reasons, let them do that. An old song of Mattafix that I indeed like: "you should know I had to let you go. Now and forever more, I am out of reach".

It's life. Money, people, love... We gain, we lose. Like a vicious circle. Yet, don't forget that in the end you are all you have and that has to be enough, there is no other way.

Let me end this writing with really some meaningful lyrics of John Legend:

"...Everybody knows that nobody really knows how to make it work or how to ease the hurt. We have heard it all before, everybody knows just how to make it right"...